Looking back, even I can't see what motivated me to start studying the bible.

Looking back, even I can't see what motivated me to start studying the bible. I was a heavy drinker and cocaine user. The reason I came to church was for my children and I chose this church because the service was at 2:30 in the afternoon on Sundays. I was usually feeling better by then and if not, there was always Wednesday night, if I missed Sunday. All of the early morning church services fell by the wayside because it was unthinkable for me not to party all night Saturday without being hung-over Sunday morning.
I had three small children, and I was out of control
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The whole time I studied, I continued to use. I remember canceling studies at the last minute because I had been up all night partying with my husband and I couldn't function. My using progressed over the next nine months while I tried to control myself. I would do fine for a couple of days in a row (drink and not get drunk) and then reward myself by staying up all night with an 8-ball of cocaine. Depression set in while I was high because I knew deep-down this was keeping me from getting to know God and no matter how much I didn't want to be high, I couldn't help it. I had three small children, and I was out of control. Showing up at school to help in my son's kindergarten class completely wired after an all-nighter.
When I came to CR, the first meeting the leader read Romans 7 and I cried. This scripture described me and my life exactly. I came into CR to quit smoking and stayed to get sober. I wrote my journal and the next week was baptized. I have been clean and sober 10 months. That doesn't sound like a long time, but the changes in my life are extraordinary. God changed me back then, and He continues to change me today through the blood of his son. I am a sober mom and wife, dedicated to saying thank you to God with my life for my life everyday.
To God be the Glory!!