Having been a disciple for 21 years and in recovery for almost all of those years, I was now seeing myself being totally overcome with anger and rage. "Losing my Religion" with my wife and children was becoming a daily event. I was constantly feeling a black cloud of rage and confusion hanging over me. I was reading and praying every day and never missing a service. What was it that God wanted me to see?

One day coming home from work I went into a book store to find a book on Church History. To get to the religion section, I had to walk past the self-help books. The name of this book caught my eye. How many times had my wife told me that I never wanted to open up and have deep talks. I bought this book instead of the one on Church History as I was hoping this could give me some answers.