Whenever it became apparent that someone in the group was about to use drugs or alcohol again, a brother in our CR group would ask this question; "Do you have another run in you?" He would go on to say, " 'cause I don't! If I go back out there, in the streets again and use, I might not make it back! " That conversation always resonates with me. How far can I go, will I go, should I go, before my time is up?

I remember visiting a place called Low Falls, a small waterfall in upstate NY. There was a rope tied to a tree that was used to swing over a pool of water at the bottom of the falls. People were swinging on it and jumping in. It looked like a lot of fun. So I decided to try it. But I didn't want to jump in because I was fully dressed. I grabbed the rope and looked over the ledge, it was about two stories high. I, however, was about 10 times higher - on marijuana! I swung out and came back to the perch. It was so nice I had to do it twice. On the way back to the rocky ledge, I missed my footing and swung out again, this time on a different trajectory.